Dark beauty

I try to find beauty in my thoughts

in the way my mind leaves scars

where ever it touches

In a moment like this

when my brain won't stop turning

making me feel dizzy

it's hard to remember

the name of the cause

The name

that was given to me when I was born

The name

I wish someone said out loud

I'm scared to go too far

with my intriguing nightmares

in the search for beauty

I might get lost in them

They pull me near when I close my eyes

even though I know

there's nothing beautiful

in the deep thoughts

my mind keeps feeding me

[01/01/17]