A riddle

I am a riddle to be solved

a solution to a problematic being

While figuring myself out

I have created more knots

Never ending questions of how to be

[09/17]

I write to be naked

I write to be naked

to find my skin

to find myself

I trace the words around me

make a map

so I can show my true self

to my own heart

When I write

I am me

I can lie and hide

but between the lines

is what I am looking for

When I've tried

to read words out loud

expose my thoughts

it has felt like strip tease

Word by word

piece by piece

I take off my clothes

to reveal my bare self

The only way to love

my unperfect body

is to cover it with letters

phrases that show the side of me

which can only be read

In my handwriting

you can see my emotions

In the shaking voice

reading lines from a messy notebook

you can hear my fears

[10/17]

Kuiskataan

Upotaan hetkeksi siihen uskoon

että maailma voi pysähtyä

jos vain toivomme

             haluamme

             huudamme

tarpeeksi kovaa

[08/17]

Collection of thoughts pt 1

[ These are glimpses from my notebook, lines that never turned into poems. Messy thoughts from 2017. ]


♥♥♥


I am more than the words I write

and less than the empty lines

in this notebook

I try to fill with life

♥♥♥

The ink is my blood

I spill it instead of

dancing with the razorblade

which loves my weaknesses

♥♥♥

We are suppose to

see the same stars

but I don't know if

we are in the same universe

♥♥♥

Don't take the road

that leads straight

to my heart

It'll break us both

♥♥♥

I can feel poetry

on your lips

Your bloodstream moves lines

rushes poems all around your body

♥♥♥

There is a monster under my bed

and it whispers your name

♥♥♥

The word ”darling”

tastes like you


♥♥♥

Replicas

Even if I care

it doesn't mean

I'm happy

Doesn't mean

I won't get stuck

with the replicas

of my imagination

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Paradox

I feel like a paradox

I create to fight the anxiety

to clear the sky from the dark clouds

But when I feel good

and the sun is shining above me

my world crumbles

because I can't create beauty

out of the disguised thoughts

[08/17]

A bruised sky

A bruised sky

above my fears

lingering with the weight

of the upcoming rain

that falls on me

like my fear of you

your smile

your emotions

not reflecting mine

[08/17]

Unspoken thoughts

Unspoken thoughts

fragile minds

trying to bring to life

their deepest emotions

Meaningless words flying around

circling the actual cause

figuring out a way

to tell the truth without getting hurt

[08/17]

Painless

Stick roses through my heart

kiss my silent lips

while I try to remember

how we got here

[08/17]