Sinä istutit minuun sen
mikä nyt pyrkii ulos
Kaunan kehoani kohtaan
tunnottomat raajat ja
irtautuneen mielen
Sinä työnsit minut reunalle
jolla olen seissyt
odottaen putoamista
Peläten ja kaivaten
tyhjää vapautta
Halu repiä itseni kappaleiksi
ja halu satuttaa sinua
voisivat olla yhtä suuret
niin kai tulisi ajatella
Tahtoisin sitä itsekin
Mutta edelleen minun kehoni on se
joka kantaa kaikki ne muistot
vaikka en enää muista
miltä tunnuit, miltä kuulostit
kaiken sen valkoisen kohinan keskellä
Starry night is leaking
through my window
water drops pouring into
this old cemetery
Night after night
I paint myself anew
because I want this
still life to resemble
something worth looking at
Please bring hellebores
to my grave
love was meant to
heal us
it was meant to
break us
so our skin would crack
our bones break
and souls seek mending
from somewhere else
someone else
Early mornings with orange light
and dust dancing in the room
like sepia filter on an old photograph
Two vintage souls
in knots
body parts resting tangled and still
Eyelashes tremble
as dreams fade into reality
and the sun reminds the world
that the night doesn't last forever
I bathe in serotonin
to fit your mould
Breathe in dopamine
from these tanks
I'm swimming in
I'm refusing to drown
in the silence you created
Waiting
as the clock ticks away
our sacred tomorrow
I long to be
full
I write the same words over and over again
trying to find their right places
the perfect lines
But I don't know how to describe it all
how to convey the meaning of these verses
I'm losing my language
speaking empty sentences to deaf ears
just hoping someone knows how to
translate my thoughts
Haihdun henkäys kerrallaan
katoan savuna, savuavana sumuna
harmaana haaveena
En löydä itseäni, en voi
koskettaa sisintäni
Abstrakti, aineeton olemus
pitää minut loitolla itsestäni
When I try to pull you closer
You slip through my cracks
You wanted to mend me
Like the art of repairing what is broken
with golden seams
But the gold leaked
out of place
disappearing into the ground
You are too valuable
to spend it all on me
I hear those vultures closing in
sensing my will
eager thoughts of confrontation
I just want to fly
I don't care how and where
I need the freedom
Air beneath me
Shred me or
swallow me whole
for I am the prey they need
And I want to be
