The notebook of whispered thoughts

Why is my heart pounding

when I write?

I grab the pen

to pour out my feelings

let loose the rhythm

that beats against my chest

Yet as I look down

on the notebook in front of me

my heart starts to dance in panic

Or in relief?

Every time a day

a week

a month

goes by without opening

the notebook of words

I am sure I have lost myself

I have come to the end of the road

that served me so well for years

I am dry

no ink spilling on the pages anymore

But then my heart starts to beat again

aches so much

that the only things that make it better

are the pen I have lost and

the notebook of whispered thoughts

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