Crossroad

It hurt

to see the time and wait for you

while the grey snow melted

wiped away our first steps

Time ran

it stumbled towards you

just like it was mocking me

left me on the gravel road

          in the middle of piles of snow

          to look for the missing heart beats

          the ones you so dearly wanted

To look for the fucking smiles and shared nights

and the conversations in the small hours

when neither of us wanted to sleep

(Or maybe I should have tried

to find Hell

          that's probably the way I was heading anyway)

I guess I should have

found those chats in the A.M

that pushed us to that crossroad

on that rough gravel road where you picked a direction

and I stayed and waited

I thought I was waiting for you

to walk back and smile to me

and kiss me like we were meeting for the first time

and take me back

to our future together

But maybe it was actually a miracle I was waiting for